living a true christian life...

i am on duty while doing this blog coz I really don't feel that I am on work. I feel more like I am at home just sitting and doing nothing but wait for the emergency center to call for cases. I seldom have cases of more than 2. This job is one in a million for me, being paid too much and not doing anything. 12 hours in a shift with only 2 hours of it being used for real work or less...Some people say that I am lucky, at first that's what I thought but as time goes by, I feel more weak and unhealthy. I just sit and wait till the time runs out then go home and rest coz my eyes are tired being used so much during work, as i use my laptop the whole time. I want to quit my job after serving here for 3 yrs and hoping that I can transfer in UK with my fiancee. I don't like the people here. Not all, but most of them really are dumb ass! They mostly take advantage of filipinos for our kindness and lack of arabic language. They feel that they are wiser and superior, but they aren't! I like some of them treating us like brothers, but i really can't deny that i like it more being at my own town. Being bored on a lifestyle that is not normal made me find a place for me to spend some of my time on a church called Every Nation Kuwait. It is a community of Born Again Christians teaching the bible and praising God for his greatness. I am a catholic but i want to hear words from the bible and know more about God. I am blessed that i found this group that I decided to make myself dedicated by being their guitarist during their praise. I am happy that I was able to make myslef more closer to GOD but I can't accept being a Born Again christian and leaving my catholic life. I don't know if it is wrong attending both the sunday catholic mass and Friday BOrn Again bible study. But one thing is for sure, that we are talking about 1 God and how to achieve real spiritual salvation. I hope this kind of activities continue to nurture my spiritual being as a true christian and living the word of God through words and actions. In this way, I was able to read the Bible and spread the goodnews but inviting some of my friends to listen and try to attend the bible study. I hope my spiritual being continues to grow closer to God as I continue my service for Him. I maybe got the laziest job but i have the most fruitful christian life ever...=P

alone...

i am feeling so alone...I've been alone in my room for the wholeday seeing only its four corners. I wonder how i managed to stay inside without craving for a little-bit of sunlight. i woke up as early as 7 am but still awake till this time (10:45pm), wondering about what will happen next. All i did is wash my piled clothes in an automatic washing machine and clean all the things in my room coz i can't think of anything else to do...  I'm so fed up with my everyday activities, leaving myself trapped in a different culture that leads me to boredom. I can't manage to adapt till now from their arab ways and i don't know why! I just feel like i want to go home and have a normal life, but I can't!!! sigh.... Well, i guess i just have to lie and wait for myself to fall asleep leaving this nightmare behind........

guilty feeling

I just got home again from work...i came from night duty and very sleepy. I got a big fight with my fiancee and i want to talk to her but she's asleep and can't reach her via skype. I hope when she wakes up, she callsr me... I hate this feeling...guilt!!!!! grrrrrr!!!! sometimes people feel guilt whenever they do something bad to a person especially when that person is emotionally attached to them...I keep on telling myself to let go of so many negative vibes that leads to rage but i can't help but do such things...I don't want to be that kind of person coz in real life i am a God fearing person...Hope I can overcome this situations even on the worst moments....

starter...

Hi peeps! This is my first time to post a blog on the web...i don't know how but here it goes...
By the way, maybe I should start introducing myself first before anything. I am 26 y/o last march 16, a proud Filipino citizen, tall, dark and handsome as they say, and willing to do anything just to get rich (exaggerated manner)! LOL!=p i have a lot of time surfing the net that's why i decided to make a blog for myself.
I am currently having a chat with my fiancee while writing this blog and i am interrupted on some points but still trying to think what to write. I am tired at this moment because i went to the house of my friend after my 12 long hours of duty as an ambulance nurse here in Kuwait. My job isn't that hard and i seldom get really tired of my work. I have 2 consecutive days of duty starting from 7 am to 7 pm followed by 7 pm to 7 am then 2 days off continuously so i have all the time to do lot's of blogging. Actually, even on duty, I use my laptop and use most of my duty hours online. Lucky ayt??!!! But I see it as boring and I can't stand waiting for my duty to be finished...As  of now, i want to shut my eyes for me to sleep so i need to end this up and continue this tom... Hope someone could read my blogs and if ever, just leave any comments. Thanks!=)